The Itch of Broken Dreams (part 1)

Broken dreams, we all have them. I doubt there is not one person alive who has not felt the sting of having a dream broken in two and otherwise discarded. When this happen, either internally or externally, tears are shed as we grieve the loss of something we could have been or something we could have done. We grieve for our self and the hole that it creates, but we also grieve for the opportunity to learn, to grow, and to affect others, usually in a positive light.

Now there are small broken dreams and big broken dreams. Small broken dreams tend to hurt us for a short span of time. They are shiny little dreams that are often mourned for a day or until something new and shiny takes its place, which in my experience seems to happen quite often. A good example to this is to look at young kids. One day they want something, they are told no, they throw a tantrum and thus, forget about it and want something different the next day.
Then there are the big dreams. These are the ones that sting royally. An example, the dream the guy or gal you want to marry, have dated for what seems like forever, have talked about marriage, they seem to be on the page, but then they decided not only don’t they want to get married, but they don’t want to marry you. You are crushed. You are broken. Not only do you grieve for the loss of the relationship; but you are grieving the loss of the dream, the now badly shattered dream. The dream that encompassed spending the rest of your life with someone, grown old with them, raising little ones and so forth, is now gone. With it, your broken dream takes away a bit of hope and faith, which leaves only the distaste of bitterness in you and your heart.

The bitterness of a broken dream can destroy people. It has a way of stacking this world against a person and oppressing them. In this mentality, one will feel as if the world and the people in it are trying to steal away other dreams and aspirations. A person will become defensive, bitter and untrusting. They will also lose a part of themselves, and essentially become lost.

A broken dream, no matter how big or small, will affect who we are. It is a change of path or direction. The emotions dragged up, such as bitterness, worthlessness, fear, anxiety and ect, affect deeply who we are and how we function. The small broken dreams that a person goes, ‘I wish I could have done that’ or those ‘might have been’ s, really do sting regardless of what a person may say. That sting affects the heart. That sting will temper future efforts to try to achieve that which a person dreams. Thus, there is always, this itch left by a broken dream. The itch caused by a heart slowly healing, but also an itch to know what might have been.

Fallen Angel